Square One.

Being with you is riding pillion on a bike; I will always have a higher risk of dying if we fall.
Which are the reasons for my cautiousness.

I wrote once about how its an animal's instinct to run/attack if its feeling vulnerable.
This is why I need a break.
Im back to square one when I told you I dont know.
And you told me I have to know whats wrong to know whats right.
And I trusted you to be the 'right'.
Now I dont know again.

But this time its different.
I do know how much I need you,
I know for sure how much you mean to me,
I know for sure that you'll be the only one I love,

But I'm back to where i dont know about you and what it will be.

And Im too tired to worry this time,
and Im too tired to try,

I thought I could let it be, but I lost faith.
It has been too many things on my mind uncleared over a long time.
Now, even being by your side does not even chase these thoughts away anymore.




How can we be sure we're not just one of them?